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Self to Self

Dear Self,
I really wanna ask “how are you feeling now?” but i know is an appropriate, i know you are not in a good condition since last few weeks..
I know its hard for you to handle an over-smart-new colleague.. but trust me..its worthy..you gonna make yourself a great leader someday..
Be patient, i know you can manage your anger and emotion.. you are good in that..did i just admit that you are the very excellent anger manager?? I suppose i am..
I believe in you..
There is a though time.. all people have them.. you gonna be okay.. soon.. trust me..
Self, What you need now is strength.. and i know you will find it in you..

Sincerely,

Self Owner
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Spanish vs French

I am Malaysian..
Can speak English quite fluent with sort of accents..
Excuse me..

I have learned Spanish..started with the telenovela..
"Maria Mecedes"
"La Intrusa"
"Mis Tres Hermanas"

Then i learned it more and more and thank you to my Friend the a d-jay came from Puerto Rico who teach me a lot..

Then..

I can speak Spanish..
But not French..
But i am in learning progress to master French..
Now..

I found that French language is beautiful..
But still, i can't easily catching up..
The word spell and the pronunciation have a huge different..
Compared to Spanish..
Much easier to spell and pronounce..

I love this both languages..
I love the Royal History of France..
But the book i have read written in English of course..
I have a very difficult time on pronunciation part..
I always, wrongly pronounce even a French Name..
Sorry..

What a shame..
I'm still trying here..
Trying not to be a perfect one..
But at least trying to be good to a good enough..
T…

Frenemies

In this age..
32 years old !!

I am mature enough to appraise people..

I am "Don't Trust People" type of person !!

Yes.. I am..

I make friends everyday and everywhere..but i only keep few surrounding..
Because there is so many "FRIENEMIES" out there..

In this age..
I don't need a friend who talk behind other friends..
I don't need a friends for girl talk about that boy or that man..
I don't need a friend who asked me for hang out every day and night..
I don't need a friend who judge me for what i suppose to do or what i not to do..
I don't need a friend who spread a bad story about me..
I don't need a friend who stab my back..

What i need..
A friend that i can call sometimes to talk at least 20 minutes on the phone..not a serious talk..just a normal story..
A friend who can spend at least 1 hour at Mamak to share "what happened to you" then go back home..i love to spend my time indoor instead of outdoor..
A friend that i can sh…

Fatamorgana

Sometimes.. All the things that i had planned went upside down.. Suddenly i lost the track..my view was so hazy.. The path i took no longer the right one.. I feel so weak..
Then i tried to have self-refelection..
Try to find my self.. try to check foot print that i left far away behind me.. Trying to look back the path i have took..
Yes..i can see the mistake i have made..one by one.. That mistakes brought me here..the lost world !!
Seriously??
I crlued up my body..tried to flash back..no..
Yes..I know this is not a right time for me to comfort my self..
But..come on, i need time to figure out !! I need time to fix it !! Not all thing can be fix easily.. Thi is life crisis..I don;t want to cry all night long for the rest of my life.. NO WAY !!
I know i can't return back..but i still have a chance to fix the things.. So, please let me cuddling my self here for a while to think.. My eyes must be sharp to catch all the mistakes that i might be overlooked.. My brain must be wisely th…

Hati dan Mereka

Miss him already.. Bonda hope that you will grow up healthy and happily !!

Tahun Baru dan Semakin Tua

Jumaat terakhir 2016 !!
Hati mendung..memandang belakang.. Menggamit kenagan 2016.. Ada yang buat aku senyum.. Ada yang pahit ditelan.. Ada yang masam dilidah.. Ada yang manis memotong kaki..
Menganjak umur setahun lebih tua.. Menganjak sekali matang dalam minda..
Seronok melihat teman-teman memilih lokasi percutian.. Aku?? Lebih senang dirumah melayan anak bulu.. Memasak, membersih, mencuci..
Entah.. Lupa bila kali terakhir aku berseronok menyambut kedatangan tahun baru.. Lupa dengan siapa aku bertahun baru.. Lupa apa motifnya menyambut tahun baru..
Meningkat usia.. Begini lah ia.. Senyum aku sendiri..
Setidaknya,  Aku pernah diberi peluang mengharungi nakal.. Aku berpeluang menimba pengalaman.. Aku berpeluang berseronok.. Aku berpeluang mengenal apa itu jahat dan baik.. Aku berpeluang mencari identiti sendiri..
Muda.. Kau sudah berlalu.. Kini tua menjengah padaku.. Tua.. Kau tahu apa aku mahu.. Kau membuktikan apa itu hidup dalam aku.. Kau bakal membuat aku jadi aku !!
Selamat tahu…

Canopy Walk

Setelah hampir 13 tahun aku bermaustatin di Kuala Lumpur.. Hampir setiap hari aku melalui jalan yang sama melintasi Taman Eko Rimba Kuala Lumpur ini.. Aku cuma memandang lesu pada hutan kecil itu..
Arrghh..ia cuma taman hutan kecil di tengah kota..apa yang ada??  Itu bentak hatiku.. Entah mengapa.. Sejak bermenjak ini, hati terusik ingin tahu apa ada dalam hutan kecil tengah kota ini..
Aku mencari waktu..waktu untuk aku belanjakan beberapa jam meneroka hutan kecil itu..
Aku menapak, dari tempat parkir kereta di kaki Menara Kuala Lumpur.. Tersergam pintu gerbang Taman Eko Rimba Kuala Lumpur..
Langkah masuk, aku melihat gazebo kayu berwarna coklat kehitaman di depan mata.. Kiri dan kanannya umpama trek bertangga.. Lalu aku membuat keputusan untuk mengambil langkah ke gazebo.. Terlihat juntaian titi gantung indah didepan mata aku.. Dari satu gazebo ke gazebo yang lainnya..hingga kepenghujungnya..
Indah..hutan kecil ini indah !! Hijau.. Biarpun masih mampu aku dengar deraan bunyi dari pe…